Monday, January 28, 2008

a disaster.

Today post is short and sweet.


It was a bad day.

period.

good night.

Lord, watch over the ones i care and love the most, keep them from harm and guide them in need of trouble. Amen

From,
Jeff

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

the decision


I found this song really nice.. if u wan to listen to this song, remember to stop the auto play song at imeem.



RASCAL FLATT - What hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’ It

It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone

Still harder,

Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the mostIs being so close

And having so much to say

watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That’s what I was trying to do

What an awesome day and this song.. sums up everything.


A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

aquarius and gemini!

I am Aquarius, My Lover is Gemini

This sparkling, zany paring could not get any better. Both of you are intellectual air signs, so conversation, good books, travel, jokes, parties, a rich social life, and a host of other activities are sure to spice up your time together. Ask an Aquarius why he or she married a Gemini and the answer is quick and easy: 'For fun!' Good answer. One wise psychologist said more couples should forget all reasons to get married except one: In the end, is your time together fun? This psychologist would approve of you and your Gemini!

Communication between you two is so superb that it knocks you out, and you both often need to scoot out of town together to chill out. Both of you have quick minds and are fast-paced thinkers -- others sometimes have trouble keeping up with you! You have many friends that you enjoy introducing to your sweetheart, and thus, your circle of friends and acquaintances will widen considerably with this union. But you'll be best friends, too.

In bed, you'll adore the playful, inventive qualities of Gemini; their penchant for talking dirty in your most intimate moments will drive you wild. An open relationship might appeal to you, but be careful -- one of you could get hurt, much to the surprise of both. Gemini is up-to-the-minute on trends, but too liberal a sexual situation is probably not a good idea for either of you. Neither of you is deeply sentimental (unless a water sign is placed strikingly in one your charts), so you don't need nights of moonlight and roses to get in the mood. But remember to schedule a few enchanted evenings anyway, just for the thrill of it!

Your relationship has the promise of a four-star, solid gold union, so hold on to one another. The trust you share, your mutual respect, and your enjoyment of being together can stand the test of time.


It is said that Aquarius belong to the world, not to one person; his or her role is to lead others and light the path to a better society.

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

I have to make a decision

The saying goes : Smile is the best essence towards life


Group Partners



I have been moodless, restless, irritated easily for the last few weeks or since the start of the new year.

Big Apologies to YOU guys if i offended you


You know i cant remember what i did last week?

oh i remembered, i have papers on the eve of new year, i got exams.. i got lots of shit. seriously i just want to end school and go to army, i am just being too self-centered sometimes and i don blame anyone but myself.

I grew up protecting myself, to learn, to suffer, to eat, to sleep, to endure without the help or pampering of others. I was brought up in a different way from others, maybe more headstrong and determined to get what i think i deserved or at least for my next generation. I cant think abt now, i have too many worries, too many issues i have to settle on my own. I can be seen slacking sometimes but im human too, i need rest to fight another day. I can live on my own and you know it.

The only way, you can be really happy with me is when i am happy with myself. Right now, I am not happy with the way things are. I want to change it. I want to be something i can be proud of and in order for that to happen, i do need to be selfish sometimes. i cant divide myself in 2 worlds, which i hope i can. As a guy,the real world is practical, I have to have something to prove my worth before i can gain the respect i want.
My ever reliable Sir
My 3rd Partner and my favourite
Eleuther and Me
Project mates
sometimes i hate her.. hahame and him again.

I have to make the hardest decision of my life.

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

continuation

Continuation of pictures from 2008 Ngee Ann open house







I been busy with projects and school work so i cant spend too much time here and meanwhile there is a cool mahjong game just like GUNBOUND style.. but only you are play mahjong with real people.. IF you love mahjong, u will love this :)

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Monday, January 21, 2008

pictures





due to networking error..
im able to post these few for now.

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

I dream of you
In the stillness of the night
Your arms are the wind
Holding me tight
Whispering softly
Calling my name
It's your voice I hear, again and again
My heart is full, yet empty too
Because the one thing I want
can and cant have is you.

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Friday, January 18, 2008

FYP DAY!

FINAL YEAR PROJECT EXHIBITION was today, to those who miss it, too bad.. and to those who went, i believe u guys had alot of fun learning, playing and even touching some of the expensive and delicate projects.

I cant tell you the thrills and joy of finally finishing what had been many months of hard planning and work. To see that my project was actually done and completed gives me a very big sense of accomplishment. Haha, it also add to the fact that there was another group doing almost a similar project like ours, only difference was we did every small details ourselves and with the help of our supervisors.

There are along of people i want to thank for helping us in our FYP,

MR GOH SWEE TIONG - for being the 3rd partner in this project
MADAM ANG - for teaching me the skills of a pre-mature engineer
MRS REGINA GOH - for looking after us and being understanding
MR LIM - for all the times i bug you when i need something

Of course there are many others, but these are the significant few that made a deep impression to me and my partner Eleuther lee. hahaha, frankly speaking, today we had alot of lecturers coming to our booth to look at our project, it was also an honour to have people from the police department to come all the way down to view our project personally. We had been told right from the start that we are in collaboration with the police department in making a device that can search for nacotics or illegal items hidden under the car. When they did ask me questions about our project, it was quite daunting because they are potential buyers for our project, which is why it was abit nerve-wrecking to speak to them. After a few demo here and there, it was hard to say they are interested at first but after we told them them everything they wanted to know, they began asking more questions related to the project.

Luckily, we had an experienced lecturer to help us out, the police department wanted us to try to enhance more in the project which is fine by the both of us, also they invited us to present for them in the police department own techno fair. I believed it will be a great opener for us!! One of the guys even stated that our project will go far for them because firstly it is low cost which is of great importance and also running quite efficiently. From what i know, the presentation for them will be on the 28th and 29th of January which will collide with my dinner and dance event, the other will be on 7th March.

That was pretty much the highlight of the whole day, as for the rest of the days.. hmm, lets say that the AR division wanted to cam-whore and why not? As this project exhibition, signifies the end of the FYP and tentatively the end of the polytechnic career. It was fun especially, to take pictures with lecturers, crazy people like deepa, yanti, kok fai, botak and basically everyone.. even the older guys are being so much fun. I guess no one actually had this much fun till now, the project was a killer and i guess all of us are glad that it is over. :)

Anyway, as for the pictures.. it is really alot of them. I probably upload them tml or when i do have it. I am happy that its over. Now, i can look forward in concentrating on my other 2 modules.. and also working.. boo hoo.. its tiring!! 2 days of full shift again..
Im tired.. i need to sleep.. so good night!! bye!

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Open house

Yesterday and today will be open house 2008 at Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

will update pictures soon. Seee ya :)



COME VISIT ME AT ENGINEERING BLOCK FROM 10am - 5pm.

if u dont know where it is?

Fret not, it is near canteen 4

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

my bad day.

Today is January 16th 2008.

I just sometimes find that life is really weird.
Life can really blow the wind out of your sail and I guess i am not the first to find out.
It also gives us choices, 1 that may lead you to desiration, the other if wrong,
leads you to failure.

I have been a victim of wrong choices and so have many of you, right now in my situation,
I believed someone made a wrong choice today,
a choice where hurt, pain, suffering evolved, or maybe it will be right..

Something happened today,
a scene so familar that it reminds me of my past.
It happened almost exactly the same way.
Only when you thought that everything was going to be fine,
life takes a twist and gives you a hell of a beating.
Maybe you had a reason.
Nobody knows, only you do.


Adversity, that's what we called it,
will always take place,
and at the most crucial time of your life.
Tomorrow is Ngee Ann Poly 08 open house,
its hard when you were given the sucker punch.
The first was when the freedom to express in how you feel,
the way you wear,
and the identity that was kept hidden for the longest time,
but none of that matters,
where all the nicest of people were there for you,
the man who dreamt of the future
who slog himself to death with tired eyes and body,
couldnt give the life attention of the needs of that important someone,
that man felt weakened,
wishing that nothing like that wouldnt have happened if it wasnt him,
thinking that important someone deserves more than that.

Reflection is what i need, the phrase which sometimes,

A woman can leave a man, without him knowing the reason.

I know what it means,
I know it can be done,
but it needs alot of effort,
alot of time,
i understand why you did it,
and i don wan to accept it
but i have to if i want to move forward.

I read a book on achelmist recently.
A boy who was a shephard had a dream to just travel around,
One day, a wise man offer him the chance to realise his destiny for something bigger,
but he have to be prepared to make decisions and face obstacles,
most importantly, he must have faith.
During his journey to achieve his destiny, obstacles after obstacles stopped him from doing so,
he was disheartened, he wanted to give it all up, but faith keeps him going.
He met a girl who he loved during the journey and found a great job,
he wanted to stop following his destiny, and just be happy the way he is.
Have a woman by his side and a job that keeps him happy.
Sometime later, the wise man appeared in his dreams,
you may ignore the destiny that awaits you,
you may be contented the way you are now,
but in the long run, your wife will noticed the distraction in you,
you will noticed that the job doesnt keep you happy for long,
you will noticed that you will never know what would have happened if you didnt stop there.
When he woke up the next morning, he knew that if he would to continue his journey,
he would have to sacrifice his love ones and his job behind,
to go and realised his dreams that he couldnt see but he knows that he wants,
He had to make a decision that his heart betrays him, knowing that whatever awaits him
is the answer to his life and the another, leaving the people he loves most behind.


The story doesnt end here.
What life throws at you, either you succumb to it, or you throw it back twice the load.
Choices you made are critical. It could spell the start or the end.


I end here for today, i just got too many reports to do. Furthermore, i had a tiring day but an enjoyable one but until the end, the world starts crumbling again.

I set my goal.
I set my sight.
I will not stop.
I will not give up.

mood: helpless.

quote: Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.




a poem i made for you a long time back.

This fire in my heart is all because of you
The warmth within my soul that will never make me blue
You're the sparkle in my eyes and excitment in my voice
You're the breath that fills my lungs
You were my one and only choice.


the love,
himbo.

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

indian. dressing..

Remember this picture..

She was trying to dunk me into the water.


It's 13th of January 2008.

I am 13 days late from the pictures that i took during new year day. It is going to be a short post today due to the fact that i have some reports to do and basically i am tired after a long day at work at Domachi in Plaza Singapura.














These was what we did at NEW YEAR DAY 2008 at Siloso beach. Anyway, i update you on what happened today.. I was so damn tired and restless while working today that i bugged almost all my colleagues.. hahaa, somehow i just wanted to quit and walk away until... this customer who went into the shop with a friend to look for a blazer.
At first i was like, orhh.. sure wont buy.. but since i was bored, i attended to him anyway.. what was supposed to be a 5 mins thing ended up an hour of serving him. He was dressed like some normal indian from singapore but those traditional indian dressing so never i though that i could transform him into a handsome, good looking charming suave guy in a matter of an hour.. why? and how?
Simply because he was getting ready for marriage and he needed something that he could wear himself presentable enough. Thankfully i took pictures of him and i will upload it the next time i blog.. as for now, i will have to focus on my report first so meanwhile.. tata..
take care people, it is really chilly.. and to cheesecake..
I cannot wait till i see you again.. you better be prepared.. :D it will be watery..
MOOD : tired and sleepy
quotes: It doesn't make any difference whether what you face is something that affects your work, your personal relationships, your sense of security, your appraisal of self-worth, or your appearance--the way you think about your situation largely determines whether you will do anything about it and what you will do.









A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

my project

MY FYP PROJECT 98% complete.

Alright. Hello i am back.

Sorry for not updating for the last few days, i realised it is really tough to do so nowadays especially when im getting really busy. I shall start somewhere, maybe abt the time i went to the interview talk at school regarding about Airlines Cabin Crew. hmm, basically the whole thing is short and sweet.. ahhaha, the offers are not as enticing but the opportunity to fly and meet people.. is really my type of job scope.. below is a couple of pictures at the seminar..

Anyway, i have not been feeling well a few days back and also my reports are really hectic and demandingly alot. I also haven been working alot to save money for my UNI education. I have dreams to achieve and speaking of which, i have been shortlisted for an interview with OCBC bank.. Its a cool job though and based on my character, i will never give it a miss.. yea, i will be going nevertheless even if my course is not related.

Now back to school project, I have just finished what was supposed to be my last presentation before the Ngee Open House 08 where our project will be show-cased at the exhibition. At the moment, our project is also in a chance to win the prestigous TAN KAR KEE award.. where we can refund our worktime for money :D hahahaa..

Our project is sophisicated with lots of electronics and mechanical parts with combination of programming. It is a DVR under-vehicle survilleance system using wireless router. cool eh? We are able to control it using our laptop or a remote control. It is also able to run auto-pilot!
Below is a brief show on how our project actually looks like..




Anyway, based on my last posting, i figured what i am gonna choose and why i am going to choose it.

I am in a course studying mechatronics engineering.
I have desires to become a pilot and with an engineering background, it is a plus.
I can be exempted from 1 year of my uni studies.
Engineering students gets the most pay compared to the rest.

I can be a sales person after i get my degree, i can take courses and seminars to upgrade myself, so meanwhile i will continue being an engineer, it will be hard work yet again but with determination and drive i will.. Right now, i have so many things to do, and i have slowly set out things i want and will.. I know i am being to ambitious or maybe sometimes things don go according to plan. i know.. and sometimes it happens right? However, isnt it better den to idle ur life away not knowing what you want? I have re-focus my priority and i will not disappoint those who believes in me. I know who you are, and thank you.. We shall achieve it together..


I will fight to be a pilot.. with an engineering degree and then MASTERS..
back up plan..

I will be a businessman who sets up a company regarding healthy lifestyles.. with a widespread group of network..

eventually, i will be a mentor to those who aspires to be someone someday..

Now, i have started reading books to build even greater confidences, to read people body languages, to be able to handle politics, understanding the mind of the customers and etc...

They are great books that will help my personality to be even better, although some people whom im closed to tend to differ that im still young at heart but i know myself best. I know what i am capable of and i definately know i am destined for something great in life. GOD will help me.. and he only will help those who help themselves.


I need to thank a few friends who have been great..

vallence - thanks for the books and i really enjoyed all the dreams and desire we have to excel.
eugene - who is practical also very demoralising at times but you are a fanstastic person..
ethan - you of all guys, will always be my gay partner.. :D

Yes yes, its another long post.. but im ending soon..

not forgetting someone important..
believe in me... i will go far.. behind every successful man is always a woman.
the year 2008.. will be different..

joffanna and jeffana will always believed in you.

mood: dreamy

quotes:
Don't ask for a light load, but rather ask for a strong back.

Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great.

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.

Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.
It is who i am that i want to be, not someone else.. with this, i end here..
bye.

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

my life in year 2008

Hey..

In this post, i realised i have so many thoughts i want to voice out, things i want to share and want it to be outside of me. Sometimes, there're things and times when you cant say to certain people or everyone, so i decided to make it all the simpler by writing it here..

I was tired, i was drained and i was troubled. On my way home just now, while i was seated at the bus, many small thoughts came to my mind, 1 main issues would be my education..
What will i be? what will i do?

You know, it was a childhood dream of mine to fly a plane, as i remembered all the little things my dad would do, bringing me to his airfield workplace at teng an air base just off lim chu kang road, while he was still a minor pilot. I recalled riding on top of missles, happily smiling towards the pictures and also being inside the the fighter plane my dad flew before, its was where i decided to make it my dream to be in it. I was in mass com b4 i chose a course that had some modules related to it and i was excited at first but hahaa eventually halfway there i realised i didnt have the patience to do it.

As i grew older, i became so interested in meeting people, i find it a joy to interact with them an appreciate the experience that i was given. Different types of people, different types of genre, different cultures.. i find that so appealing... and then suddenly i realised, i like sales or what u call business management or something like that.. hahaaa, maybe i should be in tourism... but nevertheless, i like to be my own boss as well.. Dreams are meant to be there for you to take action. My troubles now would be, should i pursue a degree in business related matters or continue my studies in engineering?

Knowing that the decisions i make will affect my future, i'm at a lost. Because for me, there is no turning back, im not as lucky as some others, i have to save up to pay for my own education while some others life has been better for them, not that i have any resentment against my parent or whatsoever but i believe it only makes me more determined to get the dreams i wish to pursue, and on top of that, more importantly my brother and sister school education are more in need right now. I hope they do well, i've been spending more time with my family recently and i beginning to appreciate that, what's more important than your love ones and Jesus?

As i head into the final few weeks of my diploma studies, im eagerly looking forward to army and working hard for the future and the plans i had for myself. Whatever decisions that i am making will be the best of me and my family, I might not get there as fast as the others, but eventually, slow and steady i will reached that those goals of mine. .

I am sorry to disappoint you guys today but there wun be any pictures today.. :( hahaha, tml i will update on the latest news going about on my project.. Finally it's going to be DONE! yea! tml is my final presentation before the exhibition on the 18th of January 2008. I nervous as i am tired, its going to end soon.. I am proud of us being able to complete it and also doing quite a good decent job.. Praying fervently, hoping that our project will be selected by the coastal guards.. =D

Lastly, i wish i could end everything in a high, but i still have quizzes and reports to hand up and furthermore jo wasnt feeling better.. but the incident at the bus, when i was doing my best i can to share and go and do with whatever i have with me so i can make u feel better and i was so worried but i was left hanging..
The kids are frustrated, they are angry, they are sad. And for them to be happy, someone has to leave.. I am not doing a good job, i am not worth the frustration and the tears..

I will still keep the promise i made..

by age 28..
the grand wedlock..

to yang the children i have..
a better life.

to upgrade my knowledge,
a master degree..

This year will be different. This year 2008 will lead me to somewhere different somewhere new..
And with that, i end my entry for today. Thank you for reading..


Mood : determined

Himbo.

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

first day of work

hello! hahhahaha!
Firstly,


i am really tired after so little of rest.. I need more sleep..
however, on a good note.. hahahaha i just finished my first day at work at british india at raffles, the whole work place was cool.. the people are really talkative and funny and gaylish and nice.. hahahaa.. the supervisor made me feel totally welcome, i mean he really make me feel comfortable abt the place.. and i really felt welcome..

hahaaa, 2ndly my colleagues helped me adjust to the enviroment by helping and teaching me all the small details, to the extend of joking and etc..

Not alot of people actually went into the shop "British India" before.. just to roughly tell you more...

It's more of a colonial style during the old times, however its more than just that, the material used are really unique and expensive. Comprises of cotten, linen and silk.. the prices are heafty largely due to the fact that the linen was brought using US dollars and also it is from italy, while the cotten side is from india..

Do you believe me when i say that i saw a female coat that actually cost $1.6k??!?!?!
I know it's not much to certainhigh-end retail lines but $1.6k for clothing and people actually buys it? ahaha..

Anyway, the people who came in are the real deal. People with big buying power.. I actually sold clothes $700 plus within the 1st hour, adding to a total of $3.5k for my own personal sale.. hahah! My manager was impressed.. not a surprised though ;) and imagined the total sales for the shop.. GOSH!


hahaha.. lastly, im so excited to show u my staff clothing.. i tink its cool.. and also a shirt from springfield which i went in to try..

I am so tired.... :) projects and reports coming up.. and tml working again.. busy busy!..

endure endure..



I know its nice.. :)

A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

Monday, January 07, 2008

new year..

MEOW!!

Yes it really been quite a while haven it..
A week has passed since the new year and speaking of which, i would like to wish everyone..

A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 people!!


Something of late had interested me, i was browsing thru my friends blog when i chance upon one which i felt it sounds really reasonable and i would like to help her air it here as well.

HERE goes :

Guys always go on about how girls are getting materialistic and so on.
Stop and think that maybe, all they want is a bright future with the one they love.
We are just being practical, can't you get that?
You've got to admit that love is not the only factor in any relationship, it's almost;
Impossible. And you know it.
They can't possibly throw away everything for the sake of love, it's not that simple anymore.
With everything around us changing and getting expensive,
stop complaining about girls being materialistic, and do something about it.
Provide her, if you love her you can't let her suffer, right?
Instead of all talk and no action, do something about it than just being a wet blanket.
Leave the job of complaining to girls.

Guys have huge egos. Live up to it, quit whining.
A girl knows her worth, and you like her because she knows what she wants.
Don't reprimand her for it, be proud of her instead.
And again, please, never use vulgarities on your loved ones;
it has never been proven to do any good.
She may forgive you, but she'll never forget the things you said. Never.
Girls are complicated in some ways, you think.
But then again, did you ever take the time to actually try and understand her?
Or simply dismiss everything with the famous; "Girls are complicated."

You know humans are practical, they take what they can get.
And they always ask for more, if possible.
You think that that girl wears too much make up, or whatever you dumb dumbs think,
but thats what caught your attention in the first place.
It has never been what others thought about me,
all that mattered was what I thought about myself.
I'm one person. There are many people out there. So, yeah.
And don't bother judging, on the surface, you think you can tell what kind of person he/she is, but on the inside, you'd never know.

written by : denise.


Enough said, i have some pictures with me now that i want to host it up and most of it happened b4 the new year, since it is already 2008, i believe throw away the old and start anew.. Year 2007 in particular wasnt really good nor bad for me, it was pretty average, lets hope things change in 2008.. I believe it will be a definately wonderful year for me. So many things will be taking place, as well as things being replace.

As for now, i would definately love to fly overseas, i think i really deserve it, at least i think i do. Life hasnt been smooth sailing so i would take this opporunity to make a difference. Anyway, common test results are OUT! hahaha, did well for all my papers and for my project has been shortlisted in the tan kar kee award, a big privilege. YES! hahahaha... I would love to end everything in a high..

Lastly, in my own personal life.. :)
tata.. will update soon..!

ps: btw, the pictures im uploading are really random.. it's all in my handphone.. so im just uploading all of it :)















I know they are random..

well well.. hope this is suffice enough for those days i nv posted.. And yes, i would like to think that..

It will be a great 2008.. it will be.. :)


A good general not only sees the way to victory; he also knows when victory is impossible.

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