Thursday, January 24, 2008
I have to make a decision
The saying goes : Smile is the best essence towards life
Group PartnersI have been moodless, restless, irritated easily for the last few weeks or since the start of the new year.
My ever reliable Sir
My 3rd Partner and my favourite
Eleuther and Me
Big Apologies to YOU guys if i offended you
You know i cant remember what i did last week?
oh i remembered, i have papers on the eve of new year, i got exams.. i got lots of shit. seriously i just want to end school and go to army, i am just being too self-centered sometimes and i don blame anyone but myself.
I grew up protecting myself, to learn, to suffer, to eat, to sleep, to endure without the help or pampering of others. I was brought up in a different way from others, maybe more headstrong and determined to get what i think i deserved or at least for my next generation. I cant think abt now, i have too many worries, too many issues i have to settle on my own. I can be seen slacking sometimes but im human too, i need rest to fight another day. I can live on my own and you know it.
The only way, you can be really happy with me is when i am happy with myself. Right now, I am not happy with the way things are. I want to change it. I want to be something i can be proud of and in order for that to happen, i do need to be selfish sometimes. i cant divide myself in 2 worlds, which i hope i can. As a guy,the real world is practical, I have to have something to prove my worth before i can gain the respect i want.
My ever reliable Sir
My 3rd Partner and my favourite
Eleuther and Me 
Project mates
sometimes i hate her.. haha
me and him again. I have to make the hardest decision of my life.
by jefferson at 7:47:00 PM |
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