Sunday, December 19, 2004
New Blog uNder cONstrutiON
Hi.. juz playin wif a new blog skin... nice?? Christmas is comin n suddenly i feel tat im all alone in tis world...tHings hv really change since e day i become single.. i can nv forgive myself for not cherishing e love tat was shower upon mi.. how i miss her so much, miss those times tat we share.. those lovely sweet memories when we were together.. e times she cry n i try to coax her.. e time i was sad n down.. how she tried to cheer mi up.. e love n attention she gave mi.. i nv treasure it... how i miss e smell of her hair where she lean on mi.. e kiss she used to give mi... e cute dimple simle whenever she was agitated.. n last of all her nv endin encouragment.. it was all her.. i own my life to her... sadly n slowly our troubles came in one by one.. n it got more.. n e worst thing was.. she still stood firmly beside me, nv giving in to temptation.. but how did i treat her... wif disgust, wif anger, wif hatred.. yes i did all those cruel things to e ger i love.. i mean wtf.. till now... i still cant seems to forget her... she gave mi everything she cld.. but i din.. n i promise her so much but deliver so little... WTF.. im a piece of shit.. almost a yr hv gone by... but i cant help it but remember her.. i once told her "u r e ger tat i will love n only u.. and when e day come when i cld love u no more, i will give u my word tat when i die.. i will be still loving u n be by ur side.. " but sadly.. i din come to her aid when she needed mi.. she was left to fend for herself... wad a shitty bf i turn out to be... love like they say will nv die off.. eternal flame... she left mi not cos she didnt love mi anymore.. but because i was a disappointment to her.. n i let her go not cos i wan her to but i cant stand her to be hurt anymore to be by my sidez... she went thru so much being wif mi n im bein selfish if i make her stay..finally today.. i saw e happi sidez of her.. itz been a while since i last tok to her... maybe we wun.. but wadeva it is.. i noe tat she safe n happi is gd enuf to make mi feel at eased.. but if u ever get to read tis... my heart still goes out to u no matter who im wif... cos ur e first ger tat i came across tat stole my hrt... so wherever u r in ngee ann.. may god bless u.. n since merry christmas is comin.. merry christmas to u all... ^_^
by jefferson at 1:31:00 AM |
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